new life.

After spending the last three hours beside a delivery bed, I hop onto the waiting room couch. My hands resting gently on my legs and my mind resting somewhere between nervousness and excitement. An older man, knowing me, comes up beside. He speaks softly and by the way he carries himself, his words seem safe. There isn't much of a conversation, or at least anything I can remember. But this one line he spoke sticks with me:

"You never know how God is preparing you for something in another season."

This was the day I watched Micah Daniel Fleming come into the world. Right before my very eyes I experienced new life entering this earth. It's a feeling I can not put into words. I feeling I can not paint on paper. It was a moment which screamed the existence of God. For the past seven months I walked beside a woman who carried this child. I watched him grow inside of her. I experienced first hand the beauty and hardship of loving a child before he even exists.

"I love you," these were the first words his mother spoke into him. You are loved. You are know. You are created to bring out the God colors of this earth. This child could become anything, conquer any height, proclaim truth to the ends of the earth. With new life, came new hope. Micah Daniel had done nothing, yet we all believed in him so well.

As I sit on the front porch holding this precious child in my arms, one month later, I recall what this man spoke to me. You see, I've spent many silent moments on this island questioning the Lord's purpose. Not doubting it, but pondering it. I've experienced so much, and a lot of which I will not see the value of until after time passes. But in the middle of unknowns and question marks I can feel myself becoming. I can feel new life forming. In this toil, I'm learning that knowing how the Lord is working is not important-- but to know, just to know, He is preparing me for something far greater then I could even dream of. Just know, before we did anything or became anything, the first word He spoke into us was "love." God looks at his sons and daughters the way we look at a new born child. He sees hope. He sees vulnerability and beauty worth pursuing. He believes in us enough to invest in our lives and prepare us to become a part His Kingdom come. In every season, new life is being formed. There is beauty in the art of becoming. No one knows this better then the Maker of the earth, the one who knitted our very life together.